Thursday, November 23, 2017

What's your favorite Thanksgiving recipe? Tell us and you might win a surprise!



Today is the big day... A day we all find things to be thankful for! Except for the turkey.  He is generally not very thankful for this day.  

Of course there are those of us that will be thankful tomorrow knowing that this day of cooking will be over for another year. 

Even so, it's wonderful when family and friends can gather around for a special meal, full of holiday traditions.  We all have our family favorites! In my family, the highlight of the Thanksgiving Day dinner is the turkey stuffed with oyster stuffing. Now, I must admit that we have a few of our newer family members who do not care for oyster stuffing (if you can imagine that!) so we always have a side stuffing for them. My own children, however, will fight to the death over the last spoonful of oyster stuffing!

So for the sake of sharing, and for those who have not tried oyster stuffing and want something different on their table, here is my family recipe.

Turkey with Oyster Stuffing

        1 large turkey, thawed                                            2 loaves stale white bread                  
        4 stalks celery, chopped                                         1 medium onion, chopped
        1 stick butter                                                           4 cans oysters
        Bell's Seasoning                                                     Salt & Pepper
        Wine, any kind of wine, whatever you like.

Gently remove the crust from each slice of bread. In a large bowl, tear the bread into small pieces being careful not to crush the bread. (Yes, I know this seems silly and it's easier to buy the stuff in the bag, but this is the way my mother made it, so just suck it up and do it!)  We usually sit around the evening before Thanksgiving to do this... and that's where the wine comes in.  Have a glass or two while tearing bread.

Add approximately 2 tablespoons Bell's Seasoning and salt and pepper to taste.  In a skillet, saute celery and onion in butter until soft and slightly transparent (not browned).  Drain oysters but save the juice.  Slightly saute the oysters and add all of this (except reserved oyster juice) to the bread in that big bowl I told you to use. Toss gently and add enough juice until stuffing is the right consistency... not soggy!

Wash and pat dry the turkey. Rub the turkey with salt, pepper and a light sprinkle of Bell's Seasoning.


Now here comes the part my daughter hates. I can hear her now saying "You want me to put my hand up WHERE?"  Yes, stuff the stuffing up the turkey's rear end and into the neck cavity and anywhere else in the bird it will fit.

Baste that turkey with more melted butter, cover and roast according to directions.

Now go read a good book, drink more wine and wait until it's time to baste... or better yet... tell us your favorite family recipe for Thanksgiving or Christmas dinner and you might find a surprise in your mailbox!  Just post it here in the "Comments" section!

One lucky winner will be picked!  I'll give you a bit of time.  Post your recipe by December 18th.





Wednesday, November 22, 2017

The Novel Lady Interviews Author Tawdra Kandle


We are so excited to be here with one of our favorite authors, Tawdra Kandle.  Tawdra writes romance, in just about all its forms. She loves unlikely pairings, strong women, sexy guys, hot love scenes and just enough conflict to make it interesting. Her books include young adult and new adult paranormal romance, new adult and adult contemporary romance and adult para-mystery romance. She lives in central Florida with a husband, kids, sweet pup and too many cats. And yeah, she rocks purple hair. 

Scherry:  Welcome Tawdra!  Thanks for joining us here at The Novel Lady.  Tell us a little about yourself and your background? 
Tawdra:  Thanks for having me! I’m an author, clearly . . . I’ve been published for six years, and I have over 56 books in release currently. I’ve been married for over thirty years, and I have four children, plus one son-in-law. I was both an Army brat and an Army wife, so I’ve lived all over the country.


Scherry:  You have a beautiful family!  Do you still have the purple streaks in your hair?  I loved hearing about the reason for the purple hair.  Can you tell our readers your story? 
Tawdra:  I do have purple in my hair. I’ve had it this way for over eight years. My amazing hair stylist was adding pink to my daughter’s hair one day, and she mentioned that many people liked pink for breast cancer awareness. Since my parents both died of blood cancers within less than a year of each other, and their signature color is purple, I elected to go that direction.


Scherry:  That’s beautiful, and quite a tribute to your parents.  What do you do when you’re not writing?  Do you have any hobbies or guilty pleasures? 
Tawdra:  When am I NOT writing?? Ah, I love to cook, I love to listen to music, to read and to travel. I enjoy spending time with my family.


Scherry:  What were you like at school? 
Tawdra:  I did not like school at all . . . but I did quite well. I wasn’t fond of the social aspect of it, which was partly because I changed schools frequently. I loved to learn and to read, but I didn’t care for how it was accomplished within the system.


Scherry:  When and why did you begin writing? 
Tawdra:  I began writing very early. When we moved to South Jersey, which was where my parents were from, it was hard for me to make friends, so I coped by creating stories and characters in order to get through. By the time I was in eighth grade, I had published my first short story in a children’s magazine.


Scherry:  Which writers inspire you? 
Tawdra:  Anne Rice, who is not only talented and passionate about her work but just lovely and generous and kind . . . Stephen King, who understands more about today’s fiction than just about anyone else . . . Diana Gabaldon, who is also open and compassionate as she is gifted . . . and Jasinda Wilder, who has helped propel the indie movement beyond anything we could have imagined!


Scherry:  How would you describe your latest novel? 
Tawdra:  Not Broken Anymore is the fourth book in the Keeping Score series. The main characters were introduced in the first book and mentioned here and there throughout, but here, we find out what happened behind the scenes—and then afterwards.
Tate is a football player who met Gia through friends in their freshman year of college. Unfortunately, they met the same night Gia fell into a destructive and tumultuous relationship with a man who made her life hell for four years. Even now, she’s broken and hurting.
But Tate thinks if she gives him—gives them—a chance, everything could change. He sees hope where Gia fears despair. He sees love where she expects pain. He sees a future where she can’t get over the past.
How they find their way to a second chance is the heart of this story. It’s about healing and patience and love that doesn’t give up.


Scherry:  I’m anxious to read it!  What inspired you to write it? 
Tawdra:  I never intended to write more than three books in the Keeping Score series. Gia wasn’t even supposed to be more than a temporary friend for Quinn in high school. But she began to talk about herself and develop more than I’d expected, and then Tate just came about, too. I didn’t think they made a good match, but Tate felt differently. I knew what was going to happen between Gia and Matt—mostly—and I knew Gia was going to suffer. But that was too big a story to be a side note to the main books.


Scherry:  If you had to write this one all over again, go through the whole editing and publishing process from the beginning again, is there anything you would do differently? 
Tawdra:  I can honestly say no. It was a painful, messy and ripping process, but I’m very pleased with the final product.


Scherry:  Are you a plotter and know what’s going to happen or are you a pantser that lets your characters lead the way? 
Tawdra:  HA! No. I never know until I begin writing, and even then, sometimes they take me by surprise.


Scherry:  How much research did you do for your latest novel? 
Tawdra:  Lots of watching football games, eating good food . . . and remembering my own haunts in Philadelphia.


Scherry:  Sounds like my kind of research!  What’s the strangest thing you’ve ever researched for one of your books? 
Tawdra:  I did a lot of research into the Summer of Love, the commune movement, and San Francisco in the late 1960’s for Age of Aquarius—not sure if that’s strange, but it was interesting!


Scherry:  How long does it normally take you to write a book? 
Tawdra:  Anywhere from four weeks to two months.


Scherry:  Thinking about the characters in your books…  Do you have a favorite?  Which one would you most like to go have a beer or glass of wine with… or wake up next to? 
Tawdra:  I love them all. No favorites! I’d love to sit at a bar and have a beer with Rafe from the Save Tomorrow world. And if I were single, I wouldn’t say no to waking up with Tate or Liam or Sam!


Scherry:  Have you ever based your book or characters on actual events or people from your own life? 
Tawdra:  Yes. All the time. The most recent example is my book Fifty Frogs. All of the hilarious things between Vivian and her ‘frogs’ actually happened to my daughters!


Scherry:  So, say you got arrested.  What’s the most likely reason the cops are carting you off to jail? 
Tawdra:  Oh, gosh, I hope that wouldn’t happen! If it did, it would probably be for standing up for one of my friends or family, regardless of the legal repercussions!

Scherry:  What is next for you?  Do you have any scheduled upcoming releases or works in progress?
Tawdra:  Not Broken Anymore releases November 28th, and then The Anti-Cinderella will come out in February. I have at least two more books in the Keeping Score series, then a new six books in the Career Soldier series. Always something in the works!


How can fans contact you/learn more about you?

Email: tjkandle@gmail.com              
Website:  http://tawdrakandle.com
Facebook:  https://www.facebook.com/AuthorTawdraKandle/?fref=ts
Twitter: https://twitter.com/tawdra

Tawdra, thank you so much for joining us here at The Novel Lady!  
I’m looking forward to seeing you at Coastal Magic in February!


If you would like to meet Tawdra Kandle in person, stop by the Coastal Magic 
Convention in Daytona Beach in February 2018.  Tawdra is one of our favorite Featured Authors.  We love her so much that this is her 6th year at Coastal Magic!  For more information about #CMCon2018, check out the web page at www.coastalmagicconvention.com.

Monday, November 20, 2017

#BookReview - Fearless: Book One of the King Series by Tawdra Kandle

Title:  Fearless:  Book One of the King Series
Author:  Tawdra Kandle
Genre:  Young Adult, Romance, Paranormal, Occult
Release Date:  December 6, 2011

About the Book:

Every gift has consequences . . .

From USA Today bestselling author Tawdra Kandle comes the first book in an intriguing series filled with magic and suspense. Readers of the Twilight books and the Black Mage series will fall in love with the secrets of this small town and its mystical inhabitants . . .

Tasmyn Vaughn didn't expect much when her dad's job moved them to a small town in Florida; it was just another new school. But King is a town founded by magic and steeped in mystery, and soon Tasmyn's ability to hear others' thoughts is the least of her worries. 

There's Ms. Lacusta, the science teacher who just might be teaching more than chemistry, and then there's Nell Massler, the ultimate mean girl whose extracurricular activities include blood rituals. And she wants Tasmyn's blood next.

Entangled in a web of first love, quirky and secretive townsfolk, magic and blood spells, she discovers the town's secrets aren't just bizarre, they're deadly. 

Save Tomorrow is a series of paranormal romances that begins in the small town of King, Florida, winds through the Serendipity and Recipe for Death books, and finally culminates in Age of Aquarius, the inevitable showdown that ties all the characters together in a fight to stop the ultimate evil.

Buy Links: Amazon 

My Review:

I'm a little late posting this review, but back in October as I was getting ready for Halloween, I was ready to read about witches and all that occult stuff!  I really like Tawdra Kandle's writing, so when I saw that I had missed this King series, I was ready to dig in!  Tawdra creates memorable characters with multi-faceted personalities.

The whole occult thing was not overwhelming to the story.  I mean that in a very good way.  There was sweet romance between Tasmyn and Michael that gave me tingles and warmed my heart.

Tasmyn is a 17-year-old high school junior who has moved more times than she can count, making it very difficult to make friends.  Add in the fact that she has the ability to read minds, a secret that her parents have warned her must remain secret, and Tasmyn had one more reason why it was difficult to make friends.  Then along comes Michael, a high school senior, who instantly falls in love with Tasmyn and opens her world to more happiness than Tasmyn had ever experienced.  Yes, sweet, sweet romance!

Although Tasmyn tries her best to block out hearing other peoples thoughts, she is shocked to accidently hear something about a blood sacrifice from someone in her new chemistry class.  A girl named Nell in that class brings the term "mean girl" to a whole new height!  There is something very strange about the old family residents of this town.

The storyline was great in this book and the characters were remarkable.  Quite frankly, if I were a teenager I would be swooning over Michael.  The story dragged just a bit with some excessive dialogue and teenage stuff (after all, this is YA so that's to be expected), but it all came together to be the start of an interesting series.

Oh!  Let me add one more thing.  Right now the Kindle version of this Book #1 is free on Amazon.  So if this series sounds interesting to you, grab your copy now while it's still free.

My Rating:

About the Author:


Tawdra Kandle writes romance, in just about all its forms. She loves unlikely pairings, strong women, sexy guys, hot love scenes and just enough conflict to make it interesting. Her books include young adult and new adult paranormal romance, new adult and adult contemporary romance and adult paramystery romance. She lives in central Florida with a husband, kids, sweet pup and too many cats. And yeah, she rocks purple hair. 



You can FOLLOW Tawdra on Amazon to receive updates on her releases. You can also visit her website at http://tawdrakandle.com for more information, and subscribe to her newsletter http://tiny.cc/TawdraNewsletter for sales announcement, special exclusive content and promotions!

And if you would like to meet Tawdra in person, she will be a featured author at the Coastal Magic Convention #CMCON2018 in Daytona Beach in February 2018.

Saturday, November 18, 2017

#BookReview - An Engagement in Seattle by Debbie Macomber

Title:  An Engagement in Seattle
Author:  Debbie Macomber
Genre:  Romance
Release Date:  December 26, 2017

About the Book:

Beginning marriage in unexpected ways…

An Unusual Beginning

A billboard on the side of a Seattle road is common enough—but one advertising for a bride? It’s Chase Goodwin’s solution to the problem of finding a wife quickly, a wife to bring home to Alaska. Lesley Campbell has her own reasons for responding…and in no time she’s the Bride Wanted in Chase’s life!



My Review:

Let me start off by saying that this appears to be the second story in this "An Engagement in Seattle" book collection.  I don't want to call it a series, because it appears to be a totally seperate story.  The book currently (as of the date of this posting) on Amazon is for a different story.  That's why I did  not post a buy link to Amazon.  The story that I read and reviewed was about Leslie and Chase and the book will be released in December 2017.

Debbie Macomber is one of my favorite authors.  Her stories are always heartwarming and sweet with characters you can't help but adore.  This book was no exception!  I thoroughly enjoyed it.

Leslie is left stunned and heartbroken after her fiance breaks off their engagement and marries someone else.  Then on the day her wedding was supposed to take place, her purse is snatched in a store parking lot.  Desperate to retrieve her belongings, she runs after the thief but is unable to catch him.  An unknown hero rushes in to save the day.  That hero is none other than Chase Goodman.  Chase had come to Seattle from his home in Alaska to find a wife.  He had such a short time to do just that, so he advertised on a billboard "Bride Wanted". 

Although she didn't know at first that Chase was the man behind the billboard, Leslie soon became interested in this man and a warm relationship soon developed.  Things did not go smoothly however!  Tony, Leslie's ex-fiance created problems and Leslie's mother wasn't all too keen on this relationship either.  But a HEA prevailed!

I have to say that the romance in this book gave me tingles, and oh how I love those tingles!  There was enough steam to let you know what was happening without having it thrown in your face (if you know what I mean).  It definitely gives you a good dose of romance!

Disclosure:  A complimentary ARC was provided by NetGalley and the publisher in exchange for an honest review.  All thoughts, opinions and ratings are my own.


My Rating:

About the Author:

Debbie Macomber is a #1 New York Times bestselling author and one of today’s most popular writers with more than 200 million copies of her books in print worldwide. In her novels, Macomber brings to life compelling relationships that embrace family and enduring friendships, uplifting her readers with stories of connection and hope. Macomber’s novels have spent over 1,000 weeks on the New York Times bestseller list. Thirteen of these novels hit the number one spot.

In 2017, Macomber’s all-new hardcover publications include If Not for You (March), Any Dream Will Do (August), and Merry and Bright (October). In addition to fiction, Macomber has also published two bestselling cookbooks, an adult coloring book, numerous inspirational and nonfiction works, and two acclaimed children’s books.

Celebrated as “the official storyteller of Christmas”, Macomber’s annual Christmas books are beloved and five have been crafted into original Hallmark Channel movies. Macomber is also the author of the bestselling Cedar Cove Series which the Hallmark Channel chose as the basis for its first dramatic scripted television series. Debuting in 2013, Debbie Macomber’s Cedar Cove was a ratings favorite for three seasons.

Macomber owns The Grey House CafĂ©, which also features a gift shop and a Hallmark Gold Crown store inside. It is located in the Village Square campus, which also serves as Debbie’s corporate headquarters.

She serves on the Guideposts National Advisory Cabinet, is a YFC National Ambassador, and is World Vision’s international spokesperson for their Knit for Kids charity initiative. A devoted grandmother, Debbie and Wayne live in Port Orchard, Washington, the town which inspired the Cedar Cove series.

Friday, November 17, 2017

#BookBlitz & #Giveaway - Believe in My Heart by Maria K. Alexander



Believe in My Heart
Maria K. Alexander
(Tangled Hearts #4)
Published by: The Wild Rose Press
Publication date: November 17th 2017
Genres: Adult, Contemporary, Romance
Culinary arts student, Hope Mastriano, is down on her luck. Homeless on Thanksgiving Day, she’s caught trying to break into her cousin’s apartment by her sexy boss and lifelong secret crush.
Since getting dumped seven months ago, head chef Vinnie DiFrancesco has been in a frustrating holding pattern. He returns relaxed from a retreat, but his life is sent into a tailspin when he offers Hope, the event coordinator at his family’s trattoria, temporary housing.
With the trattoria’s traditional Italian Christmas Eve charity dinner slated to be featured on a local TV segment and things heating up in his apartment, the two must set aside their different visions to make the event a success. When a computer glitch threatens their plans, Hope proposes a risky solution. Vinnie must believe in Hope and his heart in order to secure the future of the restaurant and make it a Christmas to remember.
EXCERPT:
He jogged up the stairs to the fifth floor. Turning into the main hall, Vinnie made his way toward his apartment while digging in his pocket for the key and almost collided with three suitcases and a stack of boxes blocking his path.
Someone was moving out…or in, given the person was fiddling with the lock—with a hanger. He had moved in a couple days before his trip to California and hadn’t met any neighbors, but he did recall seeing a tall blonde woman walking out of this apartment one morning as he came in from his morning jog. This one was a few inches over five feet, and although he couldn’t see much, dark hair peeked out of the white knit cap on her head.
“Hey, can I help you?” he called.
She shrieked and dropped the hanger. “I can’t find my key and locked myself out.”
He knew that voice. “If that’s the case, why don’t you call the super?”
“My phone’s dead, and I don’t have his number.”
Vinnie pulled out his phone. “Then it’s a good thing I have it. I’ll give him a buzz.”
“No!” she cried and turned to face him.
Wide brown eyes framed by long brown lashes stared up at him.
“Hope?”
She pushed back the cap and brushed aside the bangs that fell into her eyes. “Vinnie. Funny meeting you here.”
“Same goes. You don’t live here,” Vinnie countered, surprised to be faced with one of the pantry chefs from where he worked.
Hope raised her hands. “I know how this looks, but I can explain.”
“You can explain why you’re trying to break into this apartment?”
“It’s my cousin Faith’s place. And I wasn’t breaking in.”
Vinnie raised an eyebrow and shifted his gaze to the hanger on the ground.
“Okay, so maybe it seems as though I was breaking in, but the key she gave me no longer works.” She reached in her coat pocket and withdrew a key similar to Vinnie’s.
“Did you try calling your cousin?”
“Gee, no, I didn’t think of that,” she sneered. “She’s on a cruise and then staying in Florida a few days for business. I wasn’t kidding about my phone dying and not knowing the super’s number.”
Vinnie felt a pain in his temple. Probably from not having enough to eat or drink on the red-eye from LA. “Fine, let’s get your stuff in my place. You can use my phone.”
Hope grabbed a handle of a suitcase. “Thanks, Vin. You’re nicer than people at work say.”
He paused while unlocking his door. Well, hell. Is that what they say about me? Guess he needed to do damage control with his staff. Even though his parents owned Trattoria DiFrancesco, Vinnie was the head chef and in charge of hiring of anyone who worked in the kitchen.
Including the pretty spitfire who had just swept past him, Hope Mastriano.
He hoisted the stack of boxes and followed her inside. When she headed back out, he perused the hall to see how much more stuff she had.
There were two more suitcases and a pet carrier.
“You run away or something?” Vinnie asked.
“Moved out of Steve’s place. I’m done with that deadbeat.”
“On Thanksgiving Day and with nowhere to go?”
“It’s been long overdue. Besides, I thought I could crash at Faith’s until I figured out my next step.”
“And in there?” He nodded to the carrier.
Hope raised it up a few inches. “This is Lucky, my cat.”
Vinnie was not a fan of cats, with their sharp eyes and sneaky ways. He peeked inside and into the green eyes of a white cat. He closed the front door and stepped around Hope’s stuff, including the cat, which she pulled out of the carrier. Lucky leaned forward and sniffed him before letting out a soft mew.
Between the pixie-haired cutie and the cat, the peace and relaxation he had found out west was a distant memory. By the time he got to the trattoria for Thanksgiving dinner, Vinnie was going to need a beer or glass of wine.
Possibly both.


Author Bio:
A romantic at heart, Maria K. Alexander spent hours as a young girl getting lost in and wishing to be one of the heroines in the stories she read. Books gave her the ability to go to another world where she loved meeting new characters, learning about their problems, and watching them fall in love.
Maria is an award-winning author of contemporary romance. When not writing, Maria loves to read, bake, downhill ski, visit the beach, and watch romantic comedies. Maria lives in New Jersey with her husband and children, and writes in her “spare” time between juggling a full-time job and her kids’ busy schedules.

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Wednesday, November 15, 2017

#BookReview - The Upside a/k/a The Intouchables a/k/a Untouchable a/k/a You Changed My Life by Abdel Sellou

Title:  The Upside a/k/a Untouchable a/k/a You Changed My LIfe
Author:  Abdel Sellou
Genre:  Memoirs, International, Humor
Release Date:  June 11, 2012 and being re-released February 6, 2018

About the Book:

The true story of a charismatic Algerian con-man whose friendship with a disabled French aristocrat inspired the record-breaking hit movie The Intouchables (American remake, The Upside, starting Kevin Hart and Bryan Cranston, coming March 2018).The story of Abdel Sellou's surprising friendship with aristocrat Philippe Pozzo di Borgo has been told and retold around the world-most recently in the major motion picture The Upside, with comedian and movie star Kevin Hart portraying Abdel and his edgy charm. In this appealing memoir, Sellou shows us the real man behind Kevin Hart's smiling face. The book takes us from his childhood spent stealing candy from the local grocery store, to his career as a pickpocket and scam artist, to his unexpected employment as a companion for a quadriplegic. Sellou tells his story with a stunning amount of talent, humor, style, and-though he denies that he has any-humility.



Buy Links: Amazon 

My Review:

One thing I can say about this book is that it is memorable.  Learning how Abdel viewed his birth family in Algeria was a bit disheartening for me, but he somewhat explained his culture and the reasons for why he looked upon them as he did.  He did not feel as though he were abandoned as a child.  There was no animosity.  He simply didn't care.  I found his analogy of his childhood quite interesting as he stated, "I didn't have an unhappy childhood, on the contrary!  I grew up like a lion in the savanna.  I was the king.  The strongest, most intelligent, and most seductive.  When I let the gazelle drink at the watering hole, it was because I wasn't hungry.  But when I was, I pounced on it.  As a child, I wasn't scolded for being violent anymore than a lion cub would be for his hunting instincts.  Is that an unhappy childhood?"

Abdel calls himself Muslim, but he didn't seem to practice his faith.  His life was one big joke to him.  Always ready with something funny to say and rarely a serious moment could be found.  Abdel's life of crime was turned around by one man, Philippe Pozzo di Borgo, a tetraplegic.  He became Abdel's one true friend.

As I said, I found this memoir of Abdel Sellou interesting, although there were parts that left me flat.  I understand that the movie was very good, but I have not yet seen it.  At the time of my writing this review, it appears that this book had been previously released under a different name.  And it appears that there are several titles to this book now.  It was introduced to me as "The Upside".  I hope that gets straightened out.

Disclosure:  A complimentary ARC was provided by NetGalley and the publicist in exchange for an honest review.  All thoughts, opinions and ratings are my own.


My Rating:



Sunday, November 12, 2017

#BookBlitz & #Giveaway - Golden Chains by Rose B. Mashal


Golden Chains
Rose B. Mashal
(The Colorblind Trilogy, #3)
Publication date: November 11th 2017
Genres: New Adult, Romance
“Royalty is a dirty game.” That’s what he’d once told her, but she couldn’t imagine how dirty it could really get.
Blessed now more than ever, Marie’s love for Mazen continues to grow, and with it, her worries and doubts, as well.
Just as they think that all of the past drama could be left behind, an enemy starts plotting revenge and ways to break them apart, forcing Marie into facing her worst fears.
With everything around her threatening her happiness, along with the well-being of the ones she loves the most, is there a limit to what Marie will do to protect them from certain danger? There might be none.
Because when it comes to love, pain can be bearable and chains become breakable.
PROLOGUE:
The smell of death saturated the air, assaulting my nose and filling my lungs with its unwelcome stench. With it came the horrible feeling of sickness and the fear of the unknown.
The scenario of dead people surrounding me, and others struggling as they fought for their lives wasn’t new to me, I’d seen it before. The only difference this time was that I wasn’t a scared little girl anymore. No, I was a horrified, fully grown woman.
For the past few days, I trusted that everything would be okay in the end. It was the only thing that kept me going. I refused to let go. I refused to allow anxiety to start stabbing at my heart or hold my brain in its disgusting claws.
But right now, I didn’t know how to be strong anymore. I didn’t know how to keep it together while feeling this agonizing pain in my body, or this unbearable ache in my chest. Being here was much more than I could tolerate.
Screaming my heart out seemed like a pretty good idea. Something in me believed that it would give me some sort of relief. But I couldn’t do that because I didn’t know if it would mean my rescue, or if it would only bring unwanted attention to me. The kind of attention that I didn’t want.
So, I held in my screams, but I couldn’t keep my tears from flowing. They simply escaped, just like the blood that was now seeping out of my body. I had no control over either of them.
I wasn’t mad at myself for crying, no. I was proud of the strength I’d shown since I was brought here. Mazen would be proud of me as well.
Mazen… My heart sank at the memory of the last time I’d seen him. My mind replayed the image of him, his head held high, and he stood tall, his features were colder than ice, and the look in his eyes was harder than stone.
I remembered the tears I’d shed as I watched him spitting orders and shouting commands. I remembered the struggle I felt to keep breathing as I heard him making threats and promising the unthinkable.
I also remembered calling to him, and him never answering me.
I remembered exactly when my heart broke. And I recalled promising myself that I’d never show weakness ever again.
But realizing what was happening now – I knew this was probably the end. There was no point in not showing weakness, no point in being strong; nor there was a point in keeping it together.
I screamed.
At the top of my lungs.
My scream declared all of what I was feeling during the past days – the hurt, the pain, the fear, the worry, the shame, and the broken heart.
All it earned me was a split second of relief. I knew very well that it could be heard beyond those doors. I knew it could be the cry of the prey, which made it easier for attackers to locate it.
It couldn’t be undone, and I didn’t have it in me to regret it. I was ready to meet my fate.


Author Bio:
Rose is a loved mother, wife, and a stay at home lawyer. Writing is her passion, and reading is her obsession. Music is her best friend and sarcasm is her speaking trend. One of her joys is bringing happiness to others and her biggest wish is that they stay true to one another. Through her stories, she wants to spread nothing except understanding, peace and love.

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